unmadesilence

I haven't typed out anything in a long time..... >.> <.< i forget and get caught up in life.

Well fortunately the good news is I am still alive and breathing quite normally. So much has happened in the last few years. Not only have i grown as a person but I'm coming to terms with who I am, that this is my life, and it's the only one I have. Learning to love myself for all the good and even my faults has been a huge part of acceptance. Having several roommate situations in the last 2 years has been very stressful and wonderful. Everything has its good and bad's but sometimes I forget that the bad can be horrible. Had some arguments, got mad, worked it out, and then got even more angry. Finally after life, work, and living situation I was done. Anger fueled me for awhile, and it took me longer then it should have to realize it. I was more upset with myself for even letting little things bother me. Relationships were mended and restored (along with some recent ugly encounters) making my social life alive once more.

Work had turned into a disaster with one thing going wrong after another. Abilities, enthusiasm, attendance, and over all hard work had been taken advantage of repeatedly. Unwilling to continue living angry and unhappy, I quit. This was not a decision I took lightly or made without much thought. For a week after the last and most disrespectful "discussion" with my boss I struggled with a decision. Weighing the pro's and con's with all the options I came up with a conclusion was finally reached. In order to get out of the fowl place my mind was in I knew that changes needed to be made. Money was a concern but I realized being happier is much more important. After all, people have survived  without money before but there are records of people dying of a broken heart. I wasn't at that point, but I wanted to be happy again, take what I wanted out of life, and to get the chance to embrace all that life has to offer with an engorged smile on my face. I don't pretend to claim that my perception on life is correct or accurate, but for myself it works, it is how I perceive life and what I believe.
Learning from life and past experiences has taught me that every person is different, is entitled to their own opinion on life.

So the current facts of my life are as such. I have moved 5 times in the last 2 years, worked 2 jobs (both at the same time a little bit), and have reanimated old friendships. Life is much better now then it was at one point last year. Taking life with my terms and choices has changed my attitude for the better.

So California was amazing, the drive took forever and we where super disgusted by the scenery but once we reached our destination all was right with the world. Did most of what we planned but sadly didn't have enough time or money to do it all. Stayed with some awesome peeps, went to theme parks, slept, ate, and did it all over and over again. Big chance of rain everyday but we realized that Disney Land has a contract with the sun =] being on go for more than a week is tiring but completely worth it. Proceeded to get wet on splash mountain and then grizzly run, finding that it was too warm not to repeat this action a few times. Only missed out on a few rides, mostly cause we didn't care too much for them. Bought a ton of stuff and more then played tetris with the trunk the rest of the trip.
The San Diego Zoo was so pretty and full of sleeping animals, and there wasn't enough time for us to even see the whole thing. The girls took soooo many pics of de animals its crazy.
Sea World was my heaven! A little chilly but that couldn't have ruined it ever, i was just so excited! Got to goo and gush all over the animals, especially with the bat rays that we were privileged to feed XD we could have spent all day just feeding and playing with them.
Everyone got all dolled up and took me to Benihana for my first time on my bday, i had so much fun even though the old lady at our table was a bitch towards the end just ignored here and was even given a free drink, yay.
Universal was our geek out day, going on rides then finding the comic book shop and buying more stuff. As we proceeded to leave the park we discovered the even more amazing shop filled with figurines!!! So upset that we had already spent all of our spending money we continued to drool over all the beauty we found in that shop.
Six Flags was the only day that ended up being a let down, spent all day there and we where only able to go on 5 rides. Not the big bang we wanted the trip to end on, but non the less the rides we did go on where crazy, THE RIDDLER!!!!!! Then to end the night right we ate funnel cake ~ yummy
Got to the top of Cali and we all rolled down the windows and breathed in the Fresh sea air and nature from the red woods on the other side. The trip was amazing and very fun, but we where so grateful just to be home in the end.


Akicon :3

Just a month and a half later akicon rolled around. Had a great drive up, made good time and barley hit traffic. Got there early and thought we had the wrong venue at first, then slowly people started showing up. Wasn't until the next morning that it really felt like con, people everywhere, laughing and hugging abound. Saw everyone i knew and got the chance to hang out with new people as always. Troll facing was all akicon was about, we had to have made some of the ugliest chin faces ever!! XD There is plenty of picture evidence of this and it is so holy! Was sad to leave as always on sunday. It never seems to last long enough but i am always glad to go home. I would turn into a zombie if it was longer then a weekend, I never want to sleep. Its a waste of my time, time i could be spending with friends and people i only get to see at con. So it is a nice welcome home to be able to pass out on meh comfy bed.

Well getting ready for christmas and Sakuracon!!! its just around the corner and i have too much to do D: i hope i can pull it all off *crosses fingers*

So i've been really busy mostly trying to find a new job and still working part-time at my other one, been working with a temp agency but they haven't really been able to help me either. Money has been really tight so i haven't been able to do any new cosplays, though i'm hoping to for akicon. I almost thought i wasn't going to be able to make it to kumoricon, but looked at my budget and decided i just couldn't afford to stay the night. So my momma is gonna give me rides too and my amazing peach India is gonna bring me home when she's able to go. We rock the Orange hard core XD


The reason moneys been so tight is cause i've been planning a trip to cali with

       


<3 these girlies, we've been planning this since May it all started around going to see Paramore down in Anaheim and grew from there XD we are all super duper excited and have the whole trip planned out already, 2 weeks of amazing crazy mayhem!!

Akicon was a blast! yeah there's not many panels or events but that just leaves more time to hang out with friends and create shenanigans. Holiday Inn ROCKS!! The hotel staff was understand and all around nice, plus getting to swim at 3 in the morning was pimpin ^_^ Sunday was the best everyone was running on empty so we were even more retarded, loud, and goofy. Which made the car home hilarious, the cars cd player had been skipping.... well we forgot to turn it off or hit pause and we were all about to pass out when I'm On A Boat starting blaring throughout the whole car, scariest and funniest way to wake up. Was sad to leave everyone and having to say good bye, makes the wait for Sakuracon harder.
  Halloween was fun, not a lot of people showed up to the party but it was fun non the less. Didn't really do much but hang out at home trying to save some money for christmas and all that jazz. I'll be done with christmas shopping this week and then hopefully soon i'll be able to start buying fabric for con ^_^ so excited!

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  I broke up with my boyfriend, it needed to be done. I found out some things he did and lied about when we were together, and i wanted a change. I'm still young and want to have fun with this short life we're all given... i know i'm going to be single for a bit, i want this for myself i miss the old me and i'm trying to regain some of who i was but not lose what i've learned in the process. I want to feel things again, and be carefree, spontaneous, bubbly and all around goofy  ~~~

yumm fries!! i'm enjoying hot fries, so yummy in teh tummy. So Kumoricon was fun, i got to see and hang out with a lot of my friends (which consists mostly of you peoples) ^_^ Planning on going to akicon as well and having more hilarious peeing in my pants moments. Work is going and oh my boyfriend is living with me again cause his bitch of a mother kicked him out again. Hoping to go back to college this winter, would be nice to get my life going. Oh i turn 21 next week ^_^ !!! very excited, mostly cause i might actually get to see some of my friends (love you guys) hmmm but yeah don't feel like being boring and writing a bunch and then just end up rambling =]

later peeps!  


                  ~You are all the sprinkles to my cupcake~