Listening to: Inner Universe
I haven't typed out anything in a long time..... >.> <.< i forget and get caught up in life.
Well fortunately the good news is I am still alive and breathing quite normally. So much has happened in the last few years. Not only have i grown as a person but I'm coming to terms with who I am, that this is my life, and it's the only one I have. Learning to love myself for all the good and even my faults has been a huge part of acceptance. Having several roommate situations in the last 2 years has been very stressful and wonderful. Everything has its good and bad's but sometimes I forget that the bad can be horrible. Had some arguments, got mad, worked it out, and then got even more angry. Finally after life, work, and living situation I was done. Anger fueled me for awhile, and it took me longer then it should have to realize it. I was more upset with myself for even letting little things bother me. Relationships were mended and restored (along with some recent ugly encounters) making my social life alive once more.
Work had turned into a disaster with one thing going wrong after another. Abilities, enthusiasm, attendance, and over all hard work had been taken advantage of repeatedly. Unwilling to continue living angry and unhappy, I quit. This was not a decision I took lightly or made without much thought. For a week after the last and most disrespectful "discussion" with my boss I struggled with a decision. Weighing the pro's and con's with all the options I came up with a conclusion was finally reached. In order to get out of the fowl place my mind was in I knew that changes needed to be made. Money was a concern but I realized being happier is much more important. After all, people have survived without money before but there are records of people dying of a broken heart. I wasn't at that point, but I wanted to be happy again, take what I wanted out of life, and to get the chance to embrace all that life has to offer with an engorged smile on my face. I don't pretend to claim that my perception on life is correct or accurate, but for myself it works, it is how I perceive life and what I believe.
Learning from life and past experiences has taught me that every person is different, is entitled to their own opinion on life.
So the current facts of my life are as such. I have moved 5 times in the last 2 years, worked 2 jobs (both at the same time a little bit), and have reanimated old friendships. Life is much better now then it was at one point last year. Taking life with my terms and choices has changed my attitude for the better.